I did not smoke!

I did not smoke.  I locked myself in the back bedroom with my computer and I did not smoke. I went to bed early, but I woke up wanting a smoke!  But I did not smoke.  I went for a 10 mile ride in the first cool crisp morning air that hints of fall coming soon and I did not smoke.  I went to work, I did not smoke.  I am home from work, and I did not smoke.  I will continue with my day… and I will not smoke!

As much as every cell in my body was screaming for nicotine, my heart was breaking at the thought of lighting a cigarette.

My heart has been broken so many times throughout my life by almost every person I have ever loved.  My Mom, my Dad, my sister, my ex-husband… But damnit I refuse to break my own heart!

I did not smoke!

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